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Changes…To Write? Too late..

Friday 14th March 2014

Another exclusive unearthed from the Daily Gerald reporter…Gaa/C 2014©

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Changes/To write?….  The following report is purely a report.

Changes,, new developments and new mentality, Change it from yesterday to today, and tomorrow. What exactly constitutes to change. Changing ones underwear, changing ones clothes. Changing ones hairstyle or colour. The act of changing ones mind, yes I suppose these can all be accounted for as change.

Change – replace with another.  As I have just had done to me.

Change – attitudes, these are and can be considered drastic, and hurting, or just bad,  depending on what it is that has changed. Or how the person or persons changed.  eg: when something is considered good and normal between, say, two people. Whether it be siblings, parents or even lovers. This happens when one of them decides to change their thoughts and attitude towards and an on going situation. Especially when the other is thinking that it need not have changed as such.

I have just become one of the many, especially Facebooker’s to use a quote of the day or just quotes. What the hell is all this about? Proving that one can research and find all these quotes on Google or any other search option. Purely their choice I know, but it seems to be so rife  that it becomes boring. [Like me I suppose]. Easy it is to put a quote on a post or timeline, easier than writing our own words of wisdom, is it? oh! and it makes us all look good.  How many of us actually believe or follow the actions of these words that some person has thought up and written for us to make ourselves look good. Sad when people result to this. But I have ‘Changed’ and also become sad, because, hey I am using a couple myself. I say words of wisdom, well are they?  Do I actually heed or take in the words on these quotes, do you, it makes me wonder. 

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Lets take the first line – ‘no one falls in love by choice,  it is by chance’ [maybe so, but we do have a choice. Do we not have control of our own emotions and mind.]

Second line – no one stays in love by choice, it is by work. [to me this is pathetic, love is natural and needs no work. relationships yes maybe]

Third line – no one falls out of love by chance. it is by choice. [ I will be nasty and say what a load of crap. I have never experienced falling out of love by choice.] It is usually forced on one by the opposite party.

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How ever you might well disagree, but that is your choice and is respected. But what I have encountered partly for my myself but seen from the outside looking in, is the absolute rubbish people say just to verify their reasoning. You have changed, is a common one. Even exaggerate the situation. I can be and probably have been guilty of this as well, it just seems to be human nature. Words like this demean the real emotion of love, the power, the drug to be addicted to. So many ways to love, fall in love, experience love, in fact there are far too many to mention, THERE ARE NO RULES TO LOVE! are there?  Yet someone writes a few lines and hey: we are all using them. [including me]

Change, can be made voluntarily, as much as unknown to us, changes gradually happen while we live, not knowing it is happening. We are told this is life.  But is it and are we so readily to accept this, or should we question. I think it is often used as an excuse, not a reason. Health is a good reason for change, forced upon us, and we have to adapt and change to compensate the illness and its symptoms. That is another post, which will be written and edited shortly by Daily Gerald newspaper.

 Gaa/C 2014©

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March 14, 2014 Posted by | Feelings an Attitudes, Interest, Personal, Space, Uncategorized | , , , , , , , , , | 21 Comments

Hindsight, if Only!

Tuesday 18th March 2014.

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During an interview with Gerry he revealed some secret thoughts. Thoughts and feelings that he kept to himself, even from family and doctor. Below is some of the thoughts he revealed to us.

As most of you know I have been in hospital recently, and no I am not going to bore with more from my experience whilst in hospital. But I am going to say I was diagnosed as Diabetic just about 2 years ago, my doesn’t time fly. All my knowledge of the disease was mostly learnt whilst in hospital, the nurses and the diabetic technician was happy to talk to me. I was being tested daily, at least twice, but usually more. My diabetes is Type 2 and is controlled by diet and pills. My latest doctors visit and tests I wastold ‘my diabetes is well controlled and within the limits expected. Oh and my retinal scans have returned clear.

However for a long period, from being told about being diabetic, I was taking antacid tablets regularly, almost daily. I was getting heart burn rather too much, but sucking a tablet cleared it for a while. Naivety I suppose created a problem that came to a head in December 2013. If only I realised what was happening, my stay in hospital I learnt so much. Just for example constant heartburn could be a sign of heart problems. In my case it was. 

Being asthmatic all my life, I have learnt to deal with things and become part of my normal. Not sleeping, well only a few hours nightly..But the past two years I was dozing a lot during the day as well as having my few hours nightly. If I was braver, less naive and talked to the right people, who knows what may have resulted. Maybe I was actually scared to hear the truth. I later became aware of the symptoms and their possible disease or illness. 

I learnt so much while in hospital, like heart burn regularly ie: daily, was a big sign for possible heart problems. I learnt that aches in my arms is also a sign for later heart problems. A man of 60 years with asthma and recently diabetic becomes a high risk. My doctor told me I now became a high risk patient, I would have to be regularly monitored. On a loser it seems to me. So all in all I was rather stupid not to tell my doctor about these happenings as and when they happened. I buried my head in the proverbial sand, frightened of what I might learn. I nearly paid for it with my life. I have to thank my doctor for her insight to take a blood test and ask for certain tests.

Precautions…

Lets Re-cap.

1. Constant heart burn, occurring daily or every couple of days. Remedy- seek doctors advice.  

2.Pains or aches in one’s arm or arms, seemingly losing strength. Remedy – seek doctors advice.

3. Tiredness, having no energy, and dozing or sleeping during the day. Remedy – seek doctors advice.

4. Keeping check on one’s health especially if one suffers from Asthma, Diabetes, or any other ailments.                                                            

Remedy- have regular check ups with your doctor.

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To sum up, if I was a little more aware and possibly not so naive, maybe just maybe things could have been averted, and my life would be so different. I am hoping this post will at the very least help some one somewhere..IN HINDSIGHT.

http://www.bhf.org.uk/heart-health/treatment/coronary-bypass-surgery.aspx

http://www.diabetes.co.uk/index.html

http://www.diabetes.org.uk/

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diabetes_UK

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March 13, 2014 Posted by | Feelings an Attitudes, Interest, Love, News, Personal, Uncategorized | , , , , , | 9 Comments

Happy Bunny-Funny.

Wednesday 5th March 2014.

This is my fourth and final poem that I wrote while in Southampton General Hospital. I hope you will enjoy it. I wrote them from my true feelings at the time. Enjoy!

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Cannot be a happy bunny,

Cannot always be that funny

Smiling becomes harder each day

Laughing, oh man no way.

The audience faces are blank.

Cheeks and chins just sank,

Smiling no, you must refrain.

Humour forbidden never again,

No jokes not a word spoken,

Lying still waiting to be woken.

Every now and then a smile breaks through.

‘Get out! get out you’ someone shouts.

This way of life we can now mourn.

Laughter and joy once again born.

We can now be a happy bunny

We can now always be funny.

Gaa/C  Dec 2013.

Whilst in hospital, ward D2 Coronary Care unit.

December 28th 2013.

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March 5, 2014 Posted by | Feelings an Attitudes, Humourous, Music, New Forest, Personal, Uncategorized | , , , , , | 20 Comments

Loving Hand [Poem]

Thursday 20th February 2014.

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Loving Hand.

Looking into peoples eyes, seeing their pain.

Their souls shining through, a shining star.

Hearts are strong, holding back the rain,

Seeing that the end of the road is not too far.

Each and every moment, smiling between the tears.

Emotions are high, stress often taken hold.

Imaginations are wild, open to all ones fears.

Even when asleep unwanted dreams unfold.

Words of wisdom always spoken with care,

Seemingly from the lips of people who know best.

Obeying and listening we must always beware

Tapping your shoulder, and becoming his guest.

The hand of love reaches down to touch your crown,

Trying to comfort and take your tears away.

Slowly, oh so slowly drifting and floating down.

Grabbing and hugging seeing you through each day.

Written by – Gaa/C Dec 2013.

Whilst in hospital, ward D2, Coronary Care Unit. 27th December 2013.

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February 19, 2014 Posted by | Artistic., Feelings an Attitudes, Interest, Love, News, Personal, Poetry, Uncategorized | 19 Comments

Back to Normal [Local Folk Songs]

Sunday 16th February 2014

Local Folk Songs Today Three Drunken Maidens.

Back to normal, hopefully. No more hospital posts, [maybe the odd small update] but for now normal posts. Today I take you back to my local folk songs.

The Three Drunken Maidens, is an old song based on the Isle of Wight. Which is by the way a short Ferry ride across the Solent. From Lymington it would be by car ferry about 45 minutes or from Southampton which you choose, a car ferry is an hour or the Hydrofoil is 30 minutes.

I chosen two versions, which are quite different. The second is by a very well-known female singer. Maddy Prior was very popular and mostly known for her singing with the folk style band Steelye Span. As well as other folk style bands. She, in my mind, has one of the best voices. I wonder if you agree! 

Keep a watch out for my Brocks Music Shed, I am to do a post on her and her music shortly.

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February 16, 2014 Posted by | Artistic., Feelings an Attitudes, Interest, Music, Personal, Space, Uncategorized | , , , , , , , | 15 Comments

Is it! Is it Really, Just Another Day?

Wednesday 12th February 2014

Below is the second of four poems I wrote while in hospital. It was written during my first week, after my operation I was unable to think or concentrate to write more, believe me I did try. The first week I was just waiting around for an opening to come for my operation. After my Angiogram I was told I was less urgent and because of the Xmas period they were getting emergency operations. So I had plenty of time, until 30th December, to think and write. I was able to walk about, so I always got dressed and did exactly that, and also spent a lot of time in the day room watching Christmas television. My hardest task was trying not to get too bored, but I lost this battle several times. I was very emotional and my moods up and down rather a lot. Many thoughts went through my head, both good and bad. Very lonely and alone, even with all the smiling and extremely good nurses doing their best, but it is not quite the same. I often felt lost. Below is my poem and a great song to relate to the title, hope you all enjoy. Thank you.

Just Another Bloody Day.

Another hour of another day hits me.

Another surprise with another trauma.

Waiting, making friends with a bed to be.

Tormented and teased and facing a dilemma.

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Mental destruction, being pulled many ways.

Never knowing but always realising.

I know now where I am to spend my next few days.

Information absorbed becomes demoralising.

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Moved about like a family of nomads,

Amongst many that have no face to show.

Some are mothers waiting, some are hopeful dads,

All that I am told makes me reach an all time low.

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Another ward from another room,

Yet again I am moved, turmoil in my head.

I try very hard to avoid thinking of  all the gloom,

But this battle I am losing, let it be said.

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Another morning followed by another evening,

The orange sun rises smiling all the way.

Across the sky it travels its rays warm and reaching,

Finally gone, I see none of this fabulous day.

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Another day ending with another night,

Outstretched arms I try to grab at some life,

I am now so tired, I close my eyes and see the light,

Bright lights and angels, at last no more strife.

Gaa/C  Dec 2013.

23rd December 2013 while in hospital. Ward D2 Coronary Care Unit.

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February 12, 2014 Posted by | Artistic., Feelings an Attitudes, Interest, Music, Personal, Poetry, Uncategorized | , , , , | 37 Comments

My Absence Explained.{A broken heart}

Tuesday 4th February 2014.

I was on the verge of composing and posting some follow-up Xmas posts when my life was abruptly changed, changed for good. But I was stopped in my tracks and had no time to post anything until now. I am hoping all you regular readers will understand and accept. I am truly grateful for the opportunity to continue with living and posting more stories as before. Thank you everyone for your continued support, love and understanding.

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Tuesday 17th December 2013.       While doing my Xmas posts, I suffered a dull uncomfortable ache in my chest and back of both arms. I could not sleep in bed so spent night o sofa.

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Friday 20th December 2013.      Visited my doctor, who took blood tests and also had ECG.

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Saturday 21st December 2013.   02.00 there were knocks on the door. Where I live one does not open door to unexpected visitations that early in the morning.  10.00am the door went again, doctor visiting.  Apparently I had had a minor heart attack on Tuesday and after his initial checks I was rushed to hospital.

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Goodbye Universe. [poem]

The universe is no longer my friend

Once again he has let me down

Many years ago he took my father

Followed a few years later with my mother.

Then without a thought he hurt my brother.

Twisting his knife of fate, deeper it went.

Oozing every last drop of emotion from me.

Screwing it up and throwing it away,

Just like scrap paper flying into the bin.

I did for awhile start to believe,

Listening to, and writing all those fancy words.

Telling me about love, faith, fate and hope.

Patience, tolerance, oh never again!

I walked the line, showing I was true.

I have lost faith.

Fate cannot be trusted,

Love will always be with me.

Hope! I do not know if I have any left.

Opening my heart, bearing my soul.

Inviting you in to become my friend.

Friend you proved not to be.

Abandoned me now, so it seems.

Today is the day, I look you in the eye.

For the last time I say, “get out of my life”

 Gaa/C 2013.

 Gerry Ainger/Cobb. 23rd December 2013. In hospital Cardiac Care Unit.

Tuesday 24th December 2013.  Angiogram-findings not good. Diagnosis, I will not be having stents put in. Instead I am now to have a double heart by-pass. Needless to say I was now very, very scared.

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Monday 30th December 2013.  Today was my turn, from time of waking in the morning to the time of operation I was continually thinking all sorts of things. Ranging from good thoughts to the real bad negative thoughts. Prolonging my life to never seeing anyone again. With all the pre-med and preparations,with the shaving my body and being drugged. The last I remember was being wheeled into the outer theatre where two surgeons were talking to me and calming me. I do not remember much of the next two days.  Apparently the operation was a success.

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Wednesday 1st January 2014.  My start of the new year was crying in pain, a collapsed lung resulted in drainage tubes and emergency procedures done very early morning of this new years day. For the next two weeks I went through numerous tests and had people, usually nurses, prodding, sticking needles in me, cutting me and sticking tubes in my chest. Cannular’s and drip feeds not to forget the catheter for urine.[Twice]

31 days after my admittance I was allowed to come home, but only with special conditions. Now on this day of posting I have improved well enough to get about and even go out in the car. However there is still a long way to go, at least, I am on this new journey and with new approach to life.

I hope to start my regular posts again shortly, plus an update to this one, I therefore look forward to getting back to normal and appreciate and am grateful for your continued support. Thank you.

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February 4, 2014 Posted by | Artistic., Feelings an Attitudes, Love, New Forest, Personal, Poetry, Uncategorized | 76 Comments

Mr Cat.

Sunday 15th December 2013.

Sandra’s Challenge.

Poet on the Loose [Anything goes.] Pop over and give it a go, give her your support and challenge yourself.

http://sandraconner.wordpress.com/2013/12/08/poet-on-the-loose-12813-anything-goes/

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December 15, 2013 Posted by | Artistic., Feelings an Attitudes, Interest, Personal, Poetry | , , , , | 6 Comments

Xmas Story [Gift of Love] 14

Saturday 14th December 2013.

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Hand in Hand.

Hand in Hand.

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To be Continued….

Please excuse any errors and enjoy. Thank you.

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December 14, 2013 Posted by | Feelings an Attitudes, Interest, Love, Music, New Forest, Personal, Uncategorized | , , , , , , , | 7 Comments

Xmas Story [Gift of Love] 13

Friday 13th December 2013

Christmas story best

At Last We Meet Again.  {beautiful piece}

At Last We Meet.

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To be Continued…

Please excuse any errors and enjoy . Thank you.

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December 13, 2013 Posted by | Feelings an Attitudes, Interest, Love, Music, New Forest, Personal, Uncategorized | , , , , , , , , | 5 Comments

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